"Know and rely on the love of God."

God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. This is how love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. -1 John 4:16-18

I tend to be an anxious person. I plan, and then I plan out a backup plan or two, just in case. I like to know what's coming down the pike so I'm never caught off guard. As a result, I can sometimes be tightly wound during stressful situations.

In just a handful of days, I'm moving across the country to start a new job in a new community. It's an adventure to say the least, and while there's a lot I know about the situation, there's a lot I don't know about it [cue the anxiety].

Here's the thing, though: what I don't know, God does know. And the way this entire situation came about, from losing my job to finding and accepting this one- I've been able to see God moving in all of it. I've been blessed uncontrollably. I've experienced healing from old wounds. I've rediscovered my identity [a continual process, right?].

For awhile now, I've been praying, "Where You go, I'll go. Where You stay, I'll stay." It's a dangerous prayer, because it opens up the floodgates, and it's hard to know where you'll end up. It's asking to be dropped into the unknown, where the only constant is God. With that, though, you have to remember that God isn't going to take you somewhere He won't be with you. And once that truth sets in, you can rest in His love, you can find peace in His wisdom, and you can be stretched by the adventure you're on together.

I know I'll be okay because I know He is with me. I know He's been looking out for me since His spirit hovered over the darkness. I know He'll continue to look out for me well past eternity. And though those two things are probably the only things I know right now, knowing them is enough.